Why did you choose Darkness?

[Acryptical]

Or did it somehow choose you?

Originally, I chose the Darkness because I hated the kind of people who dwelt in the light. It wasn't that I wanted to be better than them. I just didn't want to associate with them, or be associated with them. In the beginning of my journey, when I was still a child, I deliberately took the Dark road just to be different.

It wasn't a good reason, but I did it nonetheless. If the road to Hell is paved with good intentions, I imagine the old reasons why I did what I did count for little at this point in my life. At any rate, I found there was something less hypocritical about being Dark. I wanted to be able to accept who I was without concern for the Order. I didn't want to sacrifice my individuality for the faceless. Them. The zombie hordes.

Even then, it was all meaningless to me. I wanted to see things for myself instead of being content with what was written in the book. In order to better see what was without, I entered into the Darkness to first better see within.

[mannequin]

It came from within me, the quietness for clarity, a distant observation brought closer and closer, the concentration, forward.

My eyes, they do not lie.

[Acryptical]

Welcome to my now-slightly-less-empty forum.

Thanks for registering.

My eyes, they do not lie.

There was a time when I would ask, "How do you know?" but such a question at this point seems counterproductive to what I'm shooting for. I think it's good that you trust your eyes. If you can't trust your own eyes, you can trust nothing.

And if you can't trust anything, one arbitrary mode is just as good as the next.

If you would, tell me more about how you see Darkness.

[mannequin]

I know by the reaction to them that they convey a truth, enough to penetrate the other into a reflection. Darkness is an entrance, like an inter space where you will find the rawness of yourself. It has nothing to do with evilness, negativity or anything else similar to that which is commonly associated with the word "darkness", if you like, there is much light to be found.

Fortunately, or unfortunately, I was born into it, an internal sense of self independent of external exposure, processing at a different rate, allowing entry between expression allowing for a larger capacity for perception into the real. Penetration into the carnal, the organic, the continuous ongoing natural flow of the becoming, refreshing at a rate to observe it closely.

Darkness is a division, a platform for growth if the grounds are fertilized by the discovery of light, as the self grows, the space between you and the other increases in distance, allowing for a self-purity, a refined recognition and an acknowledgement of value, depth and meaning.

[Acryptical]

It has nothing to do with evilness, negativity or anything else similar to that which is commonly associated with the word "darkness", if you like, there is much light to be found.

Indeed, for that which is evil can be found just as readily in what we commonly associate with light. If not more so.

Nevertheless, there is a certain fearful quality in Darkness, isn't there? Something primal and unknown.

[mannequin]

The darkness maintains a fear of light for it exposes it self to it self. The modern world brings a false light, an artificial light condition with over exposure, where real exposure is therefore hidden, even from the self. The being is birthed into artificiality, where the unknown is unknown to the unknown. Darkness requires light for it to be understood, light requires darkness for it to be understood, a mutual comprehension is necessary in order to be brought forward into reality, this is where re-connection happens, allowing natural light in where the darkness leaks out. your perception is then authenticated and the world, in all its natural carnal state, is then revealed to you. The darkness penetrates through the artificial covering and salutes natural light, upon meeting..all becomes visible..you are then brought forward, a portion of the self exits itself on the flow of the leaked darkness into natural light, for a cultivation, a gathering of light, to be brought back into the self, as a torch where you can see within..

The modern walks in darkness, outwardly and inwardly, darkness upon darkness, crouching down in low light conditions, begging, crying, frantically searching for natural light, before they meet the monster that has been birthed out of this darkness, within, which is a collateral damage, byproduct or side effect of their own needs and desires which have been ignored, as the artificial provides no stimulation for connection, where growth begins..

Doom and horror erupt from within, then it bursts out of the self unleashing confused rage upon other existing beings.

[Acryptical]

Interesting thoughts.

How has this revelation improved your own existence, compared to what you were before?

[mannequin]

It's a gradually increasing process of awareness, everything that exists is a recombination of that which came before it. Improvement is a natural syncing with this awareness of an objective reality, the only benefit is an expansion of depth, to widen the capacity for reception and comprehension, where growth is a response to this expansion relative to reception. Preparation is survival, adaptation is development which equates in balance, which is stability.

"Improvement of my own existence" is a hedonistic modern strategy, similar to the "pursuit of happiness" used as tool to regulate the population playing on hopes, fears and personal comfort directed towards consumption.

There is no improvement other than syncing awareness to a naturally occurring world, resulting in an adaptive process which allows the ability for navigation, which leads to longevity through endurance. The benefit is a connected relation, healthy and pure. A great gift of clarity. A refined perception, to discriminate, which is a selection of details, which is an acknowledgement of differences, which is an organizing of patterns..which hold signs.

[Derek]

i choose to explore the darkness out of mere curiosity. in a way it does not really matter why i am drawn to it at this time, to me. i will answer that when i have an answer. who knows where it will lead. in a way that too does not matter.

i do enjoy discourse though.

There is no improvement other than syncing awareness to a naturally occurring world

sounds like a cop out to me, mannequin. what you are saying here is completely arbitrary, unique to your perspective. you have gained "a gradually increasing process of awareness" some version of clarity where others have not? lol. where have I heard that before.

the proof is in the pudding. no matter how zombified you may judge a "modern" to be, they are still alive. many have probably thrived far beyond anything you ave perceived yourself. so what are you doing that they are not? joseph smith saw a lot of things other people did not see, too, according to him.

a gradually increasing process of awareness can also be called maturity. the natural aging proces, where one becomes more acutely aware of things as they gain experience. there is nothing special about it.

directed towards consumption.

as opposed to what? a life without the need to eat or the enjoyment of comforts or anything else created by another person? someone must have handed you everyone you own if you view consumption as a negative quality. is it not a fundamental part of life, to devour others? to think there exists some higher order beyond living like a smarter naked ape carries its own illusions, which embracing it on the basis for survival is really a counter-argument, given that people generally die experimenting in the name of "advancement." ever heard of the challenger?

[Acryptical]

At least user mannequin has a solid idea of why he thinks the way he does, even if it hasn't fully been explained. To convey why we each think the way we do takes time, and can't be done in a single post.

Have patience.

[mannequin]

Acryptical.

Where are you advertising this forum?

[mannequin]

sounds like a cop out to me, mannequin. what you are saying here is completely arbitrary, unique to your perspective.

Are you sure? Does it bring you much comfort in convincing yourself of such a thing?

you have gained "a gradually increasing process of awareness"

Is that what I have gained? Tell me what else I have said I gained?

some version of clarity where others have not? lol. where have I heard that before.

Is that what it is, a mere version of clarity, do you think clarity comes in versions? or was that just another attempt to trivialize something as a way of compensating for one's mental inability?

the proof is in the pudding. no matter how zombified you may judge a "modern" to be, they are still alive.

And? Being merely alive means what exactly? even the digestive system of a down syndrome works efficiently enough for him to be "alive"..

many have probably thrived far beyond anything you ave perceived yourself. so what are you doing that they are not? joseph smith saw a lot of things other people did not see, too, according to him.

If you fail to understand what I have said, then what does it matter? Even if you can only manage to desperately pick out two small quotes in what i have posted.. it wasn't meant for your kind.. but you're free to continue on laughing, or posting sarcastic responses and whatever else..

a gradually increasing process of awareness can also be called maturity. the natural aging proces, where one becomes more acutely aware of things as they gain experience. there is nothing special about it.

It has nothing to do with aging, nor is maturity necessarily based upon aging, nor does aging imply experience.

as opposed to what? a life without the need to eat or the enjoyment of comforts or anything else created by another person? someone must have handed you everyone you own if you view consumption as a negative quality.

Moron, the context was excessive consumption relative to a hedonistic standard.

It had nothing to do with merely eating or simple enjoyments...

is it not a fundamental part of life, to devour others?

No, only to your weak biology in the form of a desperate projection.

[Acryptical]

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